No, it’s none of that. It’s that in my over four decades of life, I’ve never once lived up to my OWN potential, and despite trying my best, giving up, trying again, … countless times, I’ve still never managed to markedly improve my station in life, or my enjoyment of it.
I know I have everything I need to be capable, smart, confident person, but I’ve never BEEN any of those things, even fleetingly, so I can’t really even imagine how it would be like.
Sorry bud. It sounds like an internal thing slowing you down and external things causing a defeating blow. Im a elder millennial and I know how that goes. It’s been one garbage event after another since highschool. All you can do is keep pushing and focus on incremental success so you get some endorphins flowing. I started with exercise. Did I meet my little goals? Fuck yeah every day because my goal was to work out. If my goal was to lift my body weight I’d still be starving for endorphins.
No, it’s none of that. It’s that in my over four decades of life, I’ve never once lived up to my OWN potential, and despite trying my best, giving up, trying again, … countless times, I’ve still never managed to markedly improve my station in life, or my enjoyment of it.
I know I have everything I need to be capable, smart, confident person, but I’ve never BEEN any of those things, even fleetingly, so I can’t really even imagine how it would be like.
Pathethic, I know.
Sorry bud. It sounds like an internal thing slowing you down and external things causing a defeating blow. Im a elder millennial and I know how that goes. It’s been one garbage event after another since highschool. All you can do is keep pushing and focus on incremental success so you get some endorphins flowing. I started with exercise. Did I meet my little goals? Fuck yeah every day because my goal was to work out. If my goal was to lift my body weight I’d still be starving for endorphins.