I’m “excited about buying a new vacuum cleaner” old. Because I already bought the rugs.

The world is also filled with governments that ordered the military to shoot civilians and are still comfortably in power. No country is immune to authoritarianism, the US is not exceptional.

Hey, what’s up. Are you (or anyone in thes thread) feeling suicidal?

Talking openly helps to deal and cope with the feelings. But some people feel shame of mentioning these topics. You can find out if there’s a help line local to you and call. You’re reaching out, which is good. Find someone who is open to talk and unload that burden. Trust is hard to earn but it goes a long way to talk about feelings, even if they’re uncomfortable.